The weight of a lie. Oh the weight. Perhaps you didn’t quite notice what lying felt like on your body until the moment you were able to come clean or start acting in a truthful way. Prime example: you are involved in planning a surprise party for a friend who absolutely loves surprises. The lies you have to tell them are for their benefit, but in the long run, when they finally know the truth and the extensive web of lies can be swept away, there is just sweet relief. I know I feel it: a fabulous rush – a release.
It doesn’t help that I’m a terrible liar. I’m glad I don’t have to do it very often. I feel my jaw tighten and I have to swallow an excessive amount of saliva as I blush from ear to ear. Talk about tension. I’m sure my yoga practice looks especially interesting at those times with my shoulders jammed up into my ears.
Sometimes lies aren’t mere lies, they are how we are actually living. Are we living a life that someone else wants us to live? Or, are we living the life that benefits us?
What is your best life? THAT is your truth.
But “truth” is not one idea that lasts a life time. Truths change. Sometimes our “best life” is completely different then it once was and our actions have to catch up. And sometimes our best life is just working on finding out what our new best life actually is. It’s called transition. Transition is truth.
What did you want to be when you grew up? Are you doing that now? Would you want to be? However romantic, I’m glad I decided NOT to follow my childhood dreams of becoming a brick layer/ballet dancer. Whew! Some people know their whole lives who they are and what they want to be. Then they become that thing and stick with it. That’s their truth. I don’t know the stats, but I’m sure those people are beyond rare. And, they miss out on the magic of transition, where you get to become something new from fabric that belonged to something else completely. How incredible!!!
How does your body feel when your life is not where you want it to be and you aren’t working towards getting it there? Heavy? Tense?
Take a moment to think about it. Is this your best life? Find your truth in the NOW (not your truth from the last decade or your truth of the long away future) and work towards what is real for you today. Change is never easy, but the lightening of your load and the release of stagnation could not be sweeter.
If Moulin Rouge taught me anything it’s that the Bohemians had it right:
They feed from one another. They are one another. And they could not exist without the other.
So… let your beautiful truth, your satya, lighten your load and set you free.
Photo by Melinda Markey.